Chasing my tail

I feel as if I am always chasing my tail. Its an endless cycle of the same BS. I guess it makes me insane thinking things will be different. I hope for a change I pray for a change even a glimmer of a slight change would be nice. Maybe its my fault I let things be too lacks. I don't want to be a drill Sergent but I don't want to be a door mat either. I have tried different approaches but nothing seems to get through. Everyone is in their own world and I am here to clean it up. I would stop but then it just makes it worse on me in the long run. So I guess I will stay dizzily insane chasing my tail.